Guys I Just Wanna F*** (in no particular order)
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James McAvoy, Shannon Woodward → To Be The One by Ryan Adams
Oh the empty bottle it misses you
and I’m the one its talking to
I don’t know which is worse
To wake up and see the sun
Or to be the one that’s gone
The digital clock shows 7:31am when he blinks his eyes open. This morning, Shawn Evans (McAvoy) wakes to a cold room, scratchy sheets and an empty beer bottle. Today, Shawn knows, is a day to be spent on the other side.
Ever since his suicide attempt five years ago, Shawn has spent his days tuning in and out of being alive and being gone. He wakes to the familiar neon numbers of 7:31am every day, but he never wakes in the same world that he fell asleep in. The days in which Shawn awakens to a dead and empty world he can’t find a way out of – “the other side” – are spent in a haze of alcoholism, loneliness and self-loathing; and the other days he is faced with the harsh realization that his wife, Alice (Woodward), is dying of cancer and doesn’t have very long to live. Shawn alternates between fighting with his inner demons that are augmented tenfold when he finds himself on the other side, and struggling to care for Alice while trying to make ends meet in a reality that feels hopeless and bleak.
Soon, the lines between both of Shawn’s worlds begin blurring and Shawn is forced to question one of his realities. He is faced with the possibility of losing one of his worlds and in turn, the chance of escapism from the other. He has to decide which is worse – the burden of love and loss or the burden of his own mind.